Really hoping I spelled busyness correctly. I can never remember if it’s with an ‘i’ or a ‘y’…also, you don’t put ‘an’ in front of ‘y’, right? Even though it’s sometimes used as a vowel? English teachers, chime in as you feel necessary.
Also, just Googled it. I definitely spelled ‘busyness’ correctly.
Whew. I was worried.
I’ll be the third one to admit that I can be a slave to my schedule. I prefer to make plans with people at minimum 3 days in advance. I do not do well with spontaneity. It makes me a little sweaty. I like to know (read: control) what I’m doing well in advance of when I’m doing it.
I’m working on it though. #babysteps
And along with that, for an introvert, I enjoy having a full calendar. Mainly, I think, so I can control my environment. Even if the thing that’s on my calendar is alone time.
I’ve scheduled alone time with myself before.
Often, I like to think that I’m back in my Brownie days with my vest on and everyone can see my little badges. And one that I like to flaunt quite frequently is my badge of busyness.
“So, long time no see! How have you been?”-person
“Oh man…ya know…busy.”-me
“Anything new happening in your life?”-another person
“Not really, just super busy all the time.”-me again
I want to move at a fast pace, filling my life with things and commitments, yet I struggle to slow down and be with Jesus.
Then I get confused and frustrated and hurt when I feel far from Him. I feel like God isn’t keeping up and that I need to pull His weight as well as mine. I don’t understand why He isn’t honoring all of the good things I’m doing by giving me what I want when I want them.
Then, I do slow down. I take the time to be with Him. I make myself busy with Jesus. And I see this in His Word:
The Lord is not slow to fulfill his promise as some count slowness, but is patient toward you…
2 Peter 3:9a
Hittin me with that truth stick.
The Lord is not slow like I think He is. His patience is for me.
It’s humorous to me how I think that I know better than God. That I think He just needs to get with the program and move at my pace. That He is just holding out on me because He feels like it.
But that couldn’t be farther from the truth.
The truth is that God is still God, and God is still good. He is patient with a crabby little sinner like me. He gives goodness for the good of His people, to the glory of His name. He who has promised is faithful, and His promise will come to pass as He sees fit.
And you know what His promise is? Jesus. Redemption through the blood of His Son. Restoration with Him for eternity.
I can take my badge of busyness off – I can stop working so hard to control my circumstances and my feelings and my future and all other things – and rest in the security I have in Christ.
I can put on the badge of Christ and “let the peace of Christ rule in (my) heart” [Colossians 3:15], knowing that my busyness doesn’t save me. My calendar is not my savior. My good deeds do not redeem me.
Christ redeems me, and that’s the only badge I need on my vest.