I know I’ve talked about my friends quite a bit on here before, but I’m going to talk about them again. Well, really just one because she’s the one that inspired tonight’s post.
About a week ago (8 days to be exact), my dear friend posted this on Instagram:
I had one of those days where things just kept going wrong. I couldn’t help but have a really sinful thought, “I have very little to be thankful for. God you haven’t blessed me lately.”
And I nodded along, “Ditto, sister. Ditto.”
It was just one of those weeks. Every woe-is-me emotion was making its way to the surface of my life and I just wanted to have a good cry. I’ve had this thought run through my mind more than once over the past year: “What do I have to do to get You to show You care about me?!”
Sinful, I know.
Honest? Yup. Very.
It’s easy for me to try to work my way towards blessings. I want to be the good little athlete I’ve always been and earn my spot. I was to prove that I’m worth it.
I can’t accept grace, mercy, justice, divine love at face value. I find it hard to believe that God is good just because.
And then I start feeling bad about feeling bad
“Why are you complaining, Smith? You ARE blessed. You have a home to live in, food to eat, clothes to wear, a family & friends that love you. Stop it!”
The pendulum then swings towards self-reliance and not wanting to ‘burden’ God with my needs. I cheapen His love & grace by thinking that my needs aren’t worth His time.
Both of these attitudes are sinful. Both say God isn’t good, enough, just, holy. Both say that my way is better and I can just do this life alone.
But then my friend finished her post:
A little later I opened my variety pack fruit snack and found 3 raspberries. It’s my favorite flavor and you’re lucky if you get 1. (Yesterday I got none.) BUT today I found 3 waiting for me. Sounds so silly, but I was so humbled. Even if it is just about my fruit snack, I have so much to be thankful for. We have a Savior who already won the battle. #fruitsnackfaith #choosejoy #Heisalwaysgood
(Sorry, not sorry that I left the hashtags in there.)
God does bless us in the most mundane ways.
God does care about our simple & small desires.
He knows us so intimately, and wants us to know His love so greatly, that He gives us our favorite fruit snacks at just the right moment.
It can be easy to look past God’s goodness in the everyday life moments, and it can be just as easy to think He doesn’t care about something as small as me wanting queso for dinner.
Know that He does care. He does love extravagantly. He knows our hearts so well that He’s giving us just what we desire and need, exactly when we need it.
Take heart, precious one. He has won the battle & holds your heart.
*and yes, in case you were wondering, that IS the original fruit snack picture that inspired this whole thing!
I love you and your transparency! Such a heart for God,Kayla 🙂